Let’s go ahead and file this post under JDub’s Rants, lol. But seriously, I am starting to get a little annoyed with everyone thinking they are some sort of internet celebrity.

• Just because you have a show on Blog Talk Radio … That doesn’t make you a celebrity
• Just because you may know a couple people at record labels (join the club, we all do)…. That doesn’t make you a celebrity
• Just because you have a Twitter account with over 500 followers… That doesn’t make you a celebrity
• Just because you have a couple of views on your YouTube video… That doesn’t make you a celebrity
• Just because you have a Wordpress blog (we all do!) … That doesn’t make you a celebrity

Now by all means, get that money & get to the top. I can’t knock no one for that. But just know where you stand in the public eye first, before you go out boasting that you are “big”. Because those 500 followers who you thought loved you, are really just laughing at you.

Brand yourself. Learn some marketing. Get yourself represented by an agency. Get……… LEGIT!

This is a PSA brought to you by the good folks over here at The Daily Dub.

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I don’t know of a catchy line or anything to start this post off, so I will just dive right in. I am starting to realize that I may be just a little too analytical and perhaps even, a little too logical for my own good. For the most part in my life, I operate as if everything needs to be laid out. Everything has to have a plan. Everything has to have an end goal in sight. But now I am starting to realize that may not be a good thing all the time.

I’ve never been one to just not care 100% and just go with the flow of things. The times where I may have, they always end up badly. So what is one to do with this dilemma? Should I just go buckwild? I mean, im 27 now, perhaps it’s a little too old at this stage in my life.

Don’t get me wrong, I wan’t what everyone else wants in the end… marriage, kids, settled, the whole sha-bang. But there has to be more to it than that. There still has to be some level of excitement in my opinion.

Often I want to just pick up everything and move overseas, see the world. But then reality kicks back in and tells me I have bills to pay & that I am currently at a very stable job.

Even when it comes to relationships, sometimes in my mind I may be moving at warp speed already looking at some sort of end goal. But I know that the person who I am dating would not feel the same. Perhaps its just because I have a good read on people, and I kind of already know how things will play out with me and that other person 5 mins into our first convo. Almost as if I am psychic.

I think in the end, I just need to relax, sit back, and take it all in. Often this past year, I will walk into my place and just look around. I would just be staring at things, and saying to myself “this is all mine”. Kind of like a self-compliment. As my Dad says, I am a BMW…. a Black Man Working. I got my own car, my own place that I pay for, and provide for myself in every which way. I should be happy right? I just know there is more out there, and I am always looking for that “next” big thing.

So what awaits me?

So….

After many months (or at least a year) I have decided to start blogging again. It’s one of those “on the whim” types of decisions. I just suddenly felt the itch to come back to blogging and expressing many of the random thoughts that come through my head on the daily basis.

So where is JDub now?

Some things have changed, some have not. Am I still at the same job and in NJ, yes. Many things have happened in the course of this year at that place, but nevertheless I am still blessed to be employed in this current economic state. Am I looking for that next level up? Always. But when that will come is a different thing.

I write this as I am watching Matrix Revolutions on AMC for the billionth time, lol. You know how you tend to remember where you were & what you were doing when a certain song, show, or movie came out? That’s what I am thinking about right now. I remember when this movie came out, I was on the outs with my then very serious girlfriend. My god, how things have changed for me since this movie was released. That relationship back then was just disastrous, on so many levels. But it was definitely one of those types of life challenges that you learn from in the end. Learn what you don’t want that is.

I have matured much since that time, and have focused more on me & my happiness. That’s what its all about right? You can’t go through life looking for someone to please all the time. That’s great and all, having a loving partner who you want to give your all too. But you gotta put YOU first before everything else.

It’s funny, no matter when I blog on a personal level, I always seem to focus on relationships for the most part. Just sitting here realizing that now, lol. When I came back to NJ, I ended up getting with my ex from many years back…. again. Yet another point in life where you realize what you don’t want. Don’t get me wrong, we both understood each other on many levels. But when you have a person who is just not bringing the same things to the table that you are…. you just get fed up with it. Now I know she will probably end up reading this, and I will probably end up getting a phone call or text about it, but at this point I don’t care. Everything I am saying here I would say in person.

What I can say is that I have met someone else who I am very much interested in, and can’t wait to see where it goes. I said this on Twitter the other day, but there is nothing better than meeting someone new that makes you realize all of ex’s and their drama was nothing but a bunch of BS. It’s a very true statement. Will you all hear more about this person in the future, I am sure of it. But for now, I will leave it at that. I will say that she has thus far made me very happy, on many different levels.

So I will keep this return blog a little short, but I promise to keep more coming. With random thoughts, design topics, entertainment news, whatever is roaming around in this head of mine.

Until then… take care…